If you give a pig a pancake.....

Tonight Marquesa and I came back from the store. We had gone into Lucky's and shopped in peace and quiet since the kids were at home. When we got home, we put the groceries away and I checked in on the boys. They were all in bed, but still awake. Calvin had been reading If you give a pig a pancake and had it laying on the bed. I picked it up to put it away, then decided to read it to him instead. I LOVE those books. If you give a moose a muffin, If you give a mouse a cookie, If you give a pig a pancake, etc.  I think there are about 6 of them. Anyhow, I HAD to go into the boys room and read it to Carson and Maxwell, too.

When I was done reading it, Carson told me "Hey mom, it started with a pancake and syrup and ended with a pancake and syrup!" I reminded him that's how all of the books are. I told him that a lot of times in life, we do things like that book. For instance, after I tucked them in tonight, I got on the computer to take care of some emails and look up information on the internet. I turned on Pandora and got to listen to some nice music. First it was Today's Hits, then Taylor Swift, then Louie Armstrong, Billie Holiday, and a few other old school artists. I started thinking about how when I hear certain songs, it reminds me of where I was in life. Push It by Salt-N-Pepa reminds me of an 8th grade??? school dance that I went to in Antioch with my friend, Kellee Hill (Tadiello, now.) Totally random, but it does!! Lol.

As I was listening to different music, I started thinking of a church cd that I had a couple of years ago. I LOVED that cd!!! It reminded me of the boys and I driving in our van, singing this one song on the cd. It was such a sad song. I cried every time I heard it. Even the boys knew a lot of the words. I remember talking to them about how a long time ago, pioneers used to walk from state to state looking for a place to live. They were hungry, tired, sick, and they watched their family members die. I try to talk to the boys and teach them things whenever I can (that means when I'm not yelling at them and when they're not fighting and when we're not in a hurry, etc........so it doesn't happen too often!!) Lol.

Anyhow, yesterday I heard something that reminded me of that song. I thought about it briefly but couldn't remember details about it. Tonight, I thought of it again while I was on the computer and started looking for it online. I could only remember a couple of words and kept on googling it until FINALLY I found it!!! It's called Prayer of The Walking Child by Dave Tinney. The entire cd is beautiful, but that was my favorite song. I looked it up on Amazon and was about to order it, then I remembered that my sister has a super VIP Amazon account on steroids (which is probably the same account that everyone else has, but since I don't order from there, I went to the pro!)
Otherwise, I would be paying for shipping and would be waiting 4-14 days for the cd to arrive.

That sounds like torture when you're waiting for something, so I texted her at 10:30 and asked if she could order it for me. BTW, that's the usual time that we chat. It's funny cause we are usually up late and don't get a chance to take care of business or think about things until our kids are all asleep. That's when we do cleaning, preparing, FB'ing, etc. Most of the time when I bother her late at night, she's up too! Love you sister! So, she said that she would order it for me and now I feel like I'm waiting for Christmas!

During the hour that I've been sitting here at the computer, I've been listening to music and thinking about so many things. It's funny how music helps you do that. It helps you feel and remember so many different emotions. Being so busy all of the time with the boys, I don't get much time to listen to music. We wake up, get ready for the day, there's plenty of yelling and fighting sprinkled in along the way. Off to work and school, pick them up after school, more sprinkles of yelling and fighting, maybe a few drops of happiness, too. Lol. Before, we were busy with football. That ended and we had the boys school play. That ended and now we have baseball. In between, the boys have Ukulele club after school on Wednesdays and Scouts when we can make it there on Tuesdays. They work out/practice with their dad whenever they can fit that in. Let's not forget our errands, trips to the store, etc. I feel like we are always in a hurry.

My little beaners a few years ago. Awwww!

The few days that we don't have plans, it's nice to let them play outside and enjoy just being kids. The cool part for me is that I used to play outside this very same house when I was growing up. I used to climb the trees in the front yard with my brother and sister. My kids go to the same school that I went to. Some of their neighborhood friends are kids of the kids that I used to see when I was growing up. Pretty cool if you ask me! So now you see how one thing can lead to another and another, just like the book that Calvin was reading. I sat here and thought about so many things that kept leading to others. I'm sure everyone's life is like that, though. While I was thinking about the book, it reminded me of my blog IF YOU GIVE A MOM A BLOG, which I named after the books. Lol. I figured since I had time, I'd sit down and throw my life out there to the world again.

I was talking to Marquesa tonight about different things and we talked a little about how we have so many things to be grateful for. There are so many people that don't have food, families, parents who care about them, clean water, warm clothes, etc. I don't have much at all. I'm stressed out, broke, tired and unhealthy.....just like most everyone else. I don't pretend that my life is perfect or better than anyone else's. I just try to stay positive and enjoy what I DO have. I feel like I don't say I LOVE YOU enough to my family, especially my mom. I miss my dad and my grandparents. I hope that I'm around to see my boys grow up and go on a church mission. I pray that I can see their smiles as they become young men and adults. I wonder if they'll love me as much then as they do now. Will they still want to snuggle with me and hug me?
A few months ago, my mom told me that when your kids grow up, you still love them just as much, but they're grown and on their own, so you don't get to take care of them in the same way. It made me think about how much she must miss her mom, my grandma Sara. It made me want to tell and show my mom just how much I DO love HER. I don't show her or tell her enough. I think about her all the time and fear the day when she won't be with us anymore. I think about when my boys will be grown up and too busy for me. That makes me so sad. They are my life and I can't imagine my days being filled up with anything else. Of course, I'm crying and crying and crying some more right now......listening to music that's helping all of my emotions come out. Lol. If tissue were money, I'd be rich!!!

So, it's late and I'm tired. I'm off to bed now. Tomorrow will be one day closer to our three day weekend where we can rest and enjoy some family time together. Make sure you spread the love and blessings that you have in your life. You never know who is needing it right now!

Night all. See what happens when you give a mom a blog???? She'll type your ear off!